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Life is crazy
But what matters is how you deal with it(:
Hey all, feeling much better and stuff. thanks for all those people who were comforted me and stuff:D Well, the weekend has passed real fast. So, Saturday was craziness for me. plain craziness. hah. After tuition, rushed to Suntec for ISO then checked out the shops then realised THIS FASHION wasn't there. So had to change to FOX. All survey forms were rushily ammended. haha. then commenced with observational study which was dead boring:/ ah wells, then survey part was crazy, we ran all over Suntec to find people. to no avail. i was perspiring like nobody's business and we got lost:( zzz -__- it was still quite funn hahah. thanks guys(:
After which, I rushed to church and was late:( okay that seriously sucks:( sooo...Kevin preached. about a lot of stuff. and all. I dunno but I just couldn't concentrate throughout the whole service. cos of just so many things around me that was bothering. i dunno. it really sucked. i hope it won't happen again.
Then, Dad fetched me to performance class. oh gosh, everyone's parents were there, mine wasn't. And I felt just like crap inside. Then, played first. It went okay, a bit of stumbles, but it was bothering me. didn't play with any emotion whatsoever. Mum rushed and came late cos of misunderstandings. Rushed to no avail. Sighs. It was crap. Anyway, so went home. A lot of misunderstandings sorted out. My day was :( . eight-to-eight. I was drained.
Sunday was coolest manz!:D Had cg, went okay lah. Then, Daddy preached at GraceStar. So cool right? haha. went there to support. then yah just listen and stuff. Then Aunty Liza say I must give the present they were making to Daddy so I did lo. haha. After church, went to Vivo to eat Father's day lunch(: lovelt lunch. dee-licious stuff:D and we took pics with daddy:D haha. and then, went Challenger to shop. hah. then, went home, napped a bit. After that, went for uber late dinner at Crystal Jade. And yeah, yummy food too!:)
Today, I did the cutting out of my design for my cushion cover:D It turned out really nice haha. super proud of it! Go see on fb if you haven't. I will sew in yiyi's house or at school. I haven't decided haha. But design not complete cos words still havent sew yet, heh. okay..today did quite a fair bit of stuff bahh:) haha. shall get back to work now.
byee!Labels: CG, Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays
Life is crazy
But what matters is how you deal with it(:
Hey all, feeling much better and stuff. thanks for all those people who were comforted me and stuff:D Well, the weekend has passed real fast. So, Saturday was craziness for me. plain craziness. hah. After tuition, rushed to Suntec for ISO then checked out the shops then realised THIS FASHION wasn't there. So had to change to FOX. All survey forms were rushily ammended. haha. then commenced with observational study which was dead boring:/ ah wells, then survey part was crazy, we ran all over Suntec to find people. to no avail. i was perspiring like nobody's business and we got lost:( zzz -__- it was still quite funn hahah. thanks guys(:
After which, I rushed to church and was late:( okay that seriously sucks:( sooo...Kevin preached. about a lot of stuff. and all. I dunno but I just couldn't concentrate throughout the whole service. cos of just so many things around me that was bothering. i dunno. it really sucked. i hope it won't happen again.
Then, Dad fetched me to performance class. oh gosh, everyone's parents were there, mine wasn't. And I felt just like crap inside. Then, played first. It went okay, a bit of stumbles, but it was bothering me. didn't play with any emotion whatsoever. Mum rushed and came late cos of misunderstandings. Rushed to no avail. Sighs. It was crap. Anyway, so went home. A lot of misunderstandings sorted out. My day was :( . eight-to-eight. I was drained.
Sunday was coolest manz!:D Had cg, went okay lah. Then, Daddy preached at GraceStar. So cool right? haha. went there to support. then yah just listen and stuff. Then Aunty Liza say I must give the present they were making to Daddy so I did lo. haha. After church, went to Vivo to eat Father's day lunch(: lovelt lunch. dee-licious stuff:D and we took pics with daddy:D haha. and then, went Challenger to shop. hah. then, went home, napped a bit. After that, went for uber late dinner at Crystal Jade. And yeah, yummy food too!:)
Today, I did the cutting out of my design for my cushion cover:D It turned out really nice haha. super proud of it! Go see on fb if you haven't. I will sew in yiyi's house or at school. I haven't decided haha. But design not complete cos words still havent sew yet, heh. okay..today did quite a fair bit of stuff bahh:) haha. shall get back to work now.
byee!Labels: CG, Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays
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In need..
I've suddenly just lost it. HELP.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
I dunno why. The emptiness is coming back:( i feel like crap. its hurting. i wish life could be better and stuff. The emptiness comes when I think about it. Outside my house, just outside. I always feel the odd one out. There's no one to lean on, no one there to support me. And really just no one. Even when I feel hurt, really no one cares. Some ppl just say hey, dont feel so sad and stuff. But no one really understands. They have their life, their life is almost perfect. but maybe not. I don't know. My life is volatile like a yo-yo.
But really GOD has brought me through these times even when I felt ditched. I cried out to God so many times. Yet He never rejected me or turned a deaf ear to me. Why? Because He loves me. And I surely know that. My sole confidante is GOD and Him alone!
All I wanna do now is just worship Him and stuff. I wanna go to church too! I dunno but every time I step in there, I just sense God's presence overwhelming me .. (: I love church.
So anyway, March - April was like a total change/switch for me. I dunno why. But things changed so much. I let go of some friends and made new ones. At first, it felt bad but later it became okay. I accepted and stuff. But now, I dunno I just want some back. Specifically this person. She used to care for me a lot. Not that she was my best friend. She was just always there for me. I mean even though I didn't really always want to talk to her, but like her smses and stuff were just comforting and it really made me know someone out there actually cared for me. She was the one who kinda made me wake up and just really start to learn to rely on God. I am quite sure God used her to like tell me to kinda just rely on Him completely. You might read this. You might not. But you've been such an awesome friend to me that I don't want to let go of this. We haven't gone our separate ways but we just aren't that close anymore. I hope we will just become closer again. ILY!
I feel quite different now. Like I dunno. I'm just drifting somewhere, just somewhere where no one knows. I'm just drifting. and drifting. and drifting. I feel empty. lost. and I just really need someone to talk to me. I dunno who its gonna be. But I hope, I hope there'll be someone.
bye for now.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Testimony(:
In need..
I've suddenly just lost it. HELP.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
I dunno why. The emptiness is coming back:( i feel like crap. its hurting. i wish life could be better and stuff. The emptiness comes when I think about it. Outside my house, just outside. I always feel the odd one out. There's no one to lean on, no one there to support me. And really just no one. Even when I feel hurt, really no one cares. Some ppl just say hey, dont feel so sad and stuff. But no one really understands. They have their life, their life is almost perfect. but maybe not. I don't know. My life is volatile like a yo-yo.
But really GOD has brought me through these times even when I felt ditched. I cried out to God so many times. Yet He never rejected me or turned a deaf ear to me. Why? Because He loves me. And I surely know that. My sole confidante is GOD and Him alone!
All I wanna do now is just worship Him and stuff. I wanna go to church too! I dunno but every time I step in there, I just sense God's presence overwhelming me .. (: I love church.
So anyway, March - April was like a total change/switch for me. I dunno why. But things changed so much. I let go of some friends and made new ones. At first, it felt bad but later it became okay. I accepted and stuff. But now, I dunno I just want some back. Specifically this person. She used to care for me a lot. Not that she was my best friend. She was just always there for me. I mean even though I didn't really always want to talk to her, but like her smses and stuff were just comforting and it really made me know someone out there actually cared for me. She was the one who kinda made me wake up and just really start to learn to rely on God. I am quite sure God used her to like tell me to kinda just rely on Him completely. You might read this. You might not. But you've been such an awesome friend to me that I don't want to let go of this. We haven't gone our separate ways but we just aren't that close anymore. I hope we will just become closer again. ILY!
I feel quite different now. Like I dunno. I'm just drifting somewhere, just somewhere where no one knows. I'm just drifting. and drifting. and drifting. I feel empty. lost. and I just really need someone to talk to me. I dunno who its gonna be. But I hope, I hope there'll be someone.
bye for now.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Testimony(:
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GOD I luv you A LOT<3>
Thanks for bringing me through all the difficult times & for always being there for me when I needed you(:
Hello! I'm back after a long long time. Anyways, loads of stuff have happened(: Went for family holiday which was GOOD! Good time of bonding as a family and it was just really nicee(: Bought clothes and handbells shoes(: and yah. haha. Last day, we went to visit parents' friends. The food was really good. loved the stew(: And met one of their daughters who was really friendly to us. She's called Gracia(: She's kinda nice, haha. So before we went there, I actually remembered this guy called Timothy. I have no idea why. I know when I was P1 I kept playing with him. I think I was crazy then but yeah. So I was thinking "Hey, I'm gonna see him hahahaha". But, I was really wrong manz. He's totally changed and he looks like his brothers and he wears contacts and I wasn't even sure if it was him or his brothers-.-" Oh wells.. LOL. I think this trip was really good because my family really bonded quite a fair bit and just like depended on God a lot. I dunno but I felt it or maybe it was just me cos I changed and I committed and relied on God a lot this trip, esp. safety and all. Praise be to God that we came back safely, unharmed and did not get swine flu and all. PRAISE BE TO GOD FOREVER!<3
So Monday, Daddy took leave. Mummy woke me up and told me I had piano o.O I was like what duh.. but oh wells. So after piano lesson went to eat then so qiao, da gu and san gu came so they joined us for lunch. Then we brought them to "ji de chi" the dessert place which is the awesomest around(: Then, came back. After that, Daddy asked if I wanted to go cycling cos everyone wanted to go so I was like okay. Cos normally I ride the one with training wheels:p very suck-ish I know. And it's really tiring. So yeah. Went to East Coast Park to cycle. Then, I was sooo scared though Daddy already said he had confidence in me cos I could skate-skoot.
Then Jie taught me a little bit then I could ride le! WHOO:D I finally can ride hahahah. Jie told me last time I could ride even before she could which was like when I was 5 or 6. zzz. Can't remember. Mummy & I learnt how to cycle haha:D GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT but Mummy was like almost going to fall a couple of times. In the end, she fell at the last part:/ And stupid me just carried on cycling cos I was in front so I didn't know. And Jie chased after me all the way. Feel really bad:/ So yeah. Before the cycle back which was when Mummy fell, we went to Bedok Jetty and Daddy & Jie competed like who could balance on the bicycle longer hahahah. took videos. It was really funny then another competition was to get through btw. the bench and the railing, haha. quite fun(: So anyway, really happy I can cycle le!:D
After cycling, Daddy brought us to Long Beach for dinner(: The food is really good(: I loved the geoduck A LOT(: dee-licious! And facing the sea to eat with the breeze. AWESOME NIGHT(: 1st time Mummy is willing to cycle, be happy to do outdoor activity and have dinner by the sea, hahhaa. Monday was AWESOME!:D I love my family(: Yesterday, I wet swimming at Club. Then, had seafood hor fun. Then, went to Club Library to do some work and use Mummy's mini lappie(: haha quite cool! Then, night went to IMM to look at Jie's SONY lappie. Was about to buy but she was so picky about specks of dust and dots of dirt so didn't-.-" Ooh. I bought Roti Mum(: Dee-licious! I ate one there hahahah. This Saturday is busybusybusy manz. I'm fully packed. I'm gonna rush almost everywhere. Hectic. God will help me pull through(: Sorry for the super long update but if you've read until here, thanks for your patience(: K nights(: It's actually morning of Wednesday so I talking in terms of Wednesday morning, LOL. Nights(:
Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
GOD I luv you A LOT<3>
Thanks for bringing me through all the difficult times & for always being there for me when I needed you(:
Hello! I'm back after a long long time. Anyways, loads of stuff have happened(: Went for family holiday which was GOOD! Good time of bonding as a family and it was just really nicee(: Bought clothes and handbells shoes(: and yah. haha. Last day, we went to visit parents' friends. The food was really good. loved the stew(: And met one of their daughters who was really friendly to us. She's called Gracia(: She's kinda nice, haha. So before we went there, I actually remembered this guy called Timothy. I have no idea why. I know when I was P1 I kept playing with him. I think I was crazy then but yeah. So I was thinking "Hey, I'm gonna see him hahahaha". But, I was really wrong manz. He's totally changed and he looks like his brothers and he wears contacts and I wasn't even sure if it was him or his brothers-.-" Oh wells.. LOL. I think this trip was really good because my family really bonded quite a fair bit and just like depended on God a lot. I dunno but I felt it or maybe it was just me cos I changed and I committed and relied on God a lot this trip, esp. safety and all. Praise be to God that we came back safely, unharmed and did not get swine flu and all. PRAISE BE TO GOD FOREVER!<3
So Monday, Daddy took leave. Mummy woke me up and told me I had piano o.O I was like what duh.. but oh wells. So after piano lesson went to eat then so qiao, da gu and san gu came so they joined us for lunch. Then we brought them to "ji de chi" the dessert place which is the awesomest around(: Then, came back. After that, Daddy asked if I wanted to go cycling cos everyone wanted to go so I was like okay. Cos normally I ride the one with training wheels:p very suck-ish I know. And it's really tiring. So yeah. Went to East Coast Park to cycle. Then, I was sooo scared though Daddy already said he had confidence in me cos I could skate-skoot.
Then Jie taught me a little bit then I could ride le! WHOO:D I finally can ride hahahah. Jie told me last time I could ride even before she could which was like when I was 5 or 6. zzz. Can't remember. Mummy & I learnt how to cycle haha:D GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT but Mummy was like almost going to fall a couple of times. In the end, she fell at the last part:/ And stupid me just carried on cycling cos I was in front so I didn't know. And Jie chased after me all the way. Feel really bad:/ So yeah. Before the cycle back which was when Mummy fell, we went to Bedok Jetty and Daddy & Jie competed like who could balance on the bicycle longer hahahah. took videos. It was really funny then another competition was to get through btw. the bench and the railing, haha. quite fun(: So anyway, really happy I can cycle le!:D
After cycling, Daddy brought us to Long Beach for dinner(: The food is really good(: I loved the geoduck A LOT(: dee-licious! And facing the sea to eat with the breeze. AWESOME NIGHT(: 1st time Mummy is willing to cycle, be happy to do outdoor activity and have dinner by the sea, hahhaa. Monday was AWESOME!:D I love my family(: Yesterday, I wet swimming at Club. Then, had seafood hor fun. Then, went to Club Library to do some work and use Mummy's mini lappie(: haha quite cool! Then, night went to IMM to look at Jie's SONY lappie. Was about to buy but she was so picky about specks of dust and dots of dirt so didn't-.-" Ooh. I bought Roti Mum(: Dee-licious! I ate one there hahahah. This Saturday is busybusybusy manz. I'm fully packed. I'm gonna rush almost everywhere. Hectic. God will help me pull through(: Sorry for the super long update but if you've read until here, thanks for your patience(: K nights(: It's actually morning of Wednesday so I talking in terms of Wednesday morning, LOL. Nights(:
Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Eloi Eloi!
GOD you reign forever<3
Heya! I'm back! hahaha. nothing much. but yeah, today just slacked a lot and chatted a lot and just lazed around cos I was super extremely bored. Today, talked to Adelaine for quite some time(: She's one of the sweetest people around(: She's super cute lah. haha. Gonna help her do up her blog properly soon(: haha.
Esther and Liurong are quite funny too(: hahahhaa. And guess what? Nikki remembers me! like omg. fellow PAT'S schoolhouse mates:) have to meet up with her when she comes back from HK which is I dunno when-.-" But anyways, jiayous Nikki!:D Hope to see ya soon!
One of the awesomest songs is: GRATITUDE by Nichole Nordeman!
Send some rain, would You send some rain?
'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain
Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case..
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread
Oh, the differences that often are between
What we want and what we really need
So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace
But Jesus, would You please...
Yay! The lyrics are there! Moving lyrics(: I love the song(: Okay. Eloi Eloi by Joce has very meaningful lyrics too. But I'm too lazy to type it out haha.
Anyways, I've been talking so much about it but I haven't put it into action so I guess it's time that I do so...got no guts. sighs. I will have to do it for God(: so yeah have to put myself together and put into ACTION:D
Okay, you know what? As I looked through all my super old posts like 2007/2008 posts, it was like all very sadsad one (well not all, but most) and really just about mundane stuff and it was really like what's happening in my life and the childish naiive-ness is like clearly seen! I guess I've grown more like with God and I don't post those stuff anymore. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but anyhow, I hope things will get better(:
It's currently okay(: In balance and stuff .. I'm contented:) okay.. gtg sleep now(: tata.
Love God, Love People, Go Change The World,
charis(:
P.S. you can go and see my archives and see like the total difference but its still interesting to see my old posts hahahahah.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays, Lyrics(:
Eloi Eloi!
GOD you reign forever<3
Heya! I'm back! hahaha. nothing much. but yeah, today just slacked a lot and chatted a lot and just lazed around cos I was super extremely bored. Today, talked to Adelaine for quite some time(: She's one of the sweetest people around(: She's super cute lah. haha. Gonna help her do up her blog properly soon(: haha.
Esther and Liurong are quite funny too(: hahahhaa. And guess what? Nikki remembers me! like omg. fellow PAT'S schoolhouse mates:) have to meet up with her when she comes back from HK which is I dunno when-.-" But anyways, jiayous Nikki!:D Hope to see ya soon!
One of the awesomest songs is: GRATITUDE by Nichole Nordeman!
Send some rain, would You send some rain?
'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain
Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case..
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread
Oh, the differences that often are between
What we want and what we really need
So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace
But Jesus, would You please...
Yay! The lyrics are there! Moving lyrics(: I love the song(: Okay. Eloi Eloi by Joce has very meaningful lyrics too. But I'm too lazy to type it out haha.
Anyways, I've been talking so much about it but I haven't put it into action so I guess it's time that I do so...got no guts. sighs. I will have to do it for God(: so yeah have to put myself together and put into ACTION:D
Okay, you know what? As I looked through all my super old posts like 2007/2008 posts, it was like all very sadsad one (well not all, but most) and really just about mundane stuff and it was really like what's happening in my life and the childish naiive-ness is like clearly seen! I guess I've grown more like with God and I don't post those stuff anymore. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but anyhow, I hope things will get better(:
It's currently okay(: In balance and stuff .. I'm contented:) okay.. gtg sleep now(: tata.
Love God, Love People, Go Change The World,
charis(:
P.S. you can go and see my archives and see like the total difference but its still interesting to see my old posts hahahahah.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays, Lyrics(:
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A God who answers our prayers in His timing(:
ILY GOD<3
Hey! Sry for not posting for quite long again...zzzz. nvm. I always start off by saying that. So...1 week has boomeranged past. So fast. I can't stand it. I wish things could move slower. Anyways, I think nobody actually reads my dead blog. I want people to read, sheesh. nvm.
Okay.. so yesterday was omega funn, we made lemon squares and chocolate slices. mhm. yum! lemon squares were nicer for me because I don't fancy chocolate. Anyways, I dunno how to finish so much. It's a lot. really. Today Cheryl was like did you forget your chocolate slice, then I was a bit stunned. I brought home what, why I got extra. Then, when I came home I realised that yesterday someone asked if those she was carrying were esther, mine and [i forgot who], then esther say yes, then I told her it's not mine!! then she say they will know-.- Then end up got extra zzz. I think it was supposed to be Theresa's. haha. Feel quite paiseh cos Cheryl brought it in a nice bag some more. haha. now she has to bring it back home and eat it, HAHAHA.
Well, yesterday I almost couldn't come like cos mum said I really have to buck up on weak subjects so I was really sad. Like super afraid cannot go. Dad helped me ask through the week but it didn't work, she just said NO, like really firm NO. And being my mum, it's really hard to change her decision once she's made it. So I prayed like during lunch then if it is God's will, let me go lah. So Dad asked and SURPRISINGLY, she said YES. omg. I was overjoyed. Like WOW. God's so amazing, He never fails us, and I guess He knew that I wanted to chill out and all. yep. All praise be unto God!<3
Oh, I forgot to say about the baking part. Well, our group had 4 people, others had 2 so we made double portions. Quite cool(: Well, kinda made new friends(: And like my group was Vic, Jas and Kang. Yeah, they were quite friendly and stuff. I think most of the mixing was done by Vic & Kang cos Jasmine and me are like not very good at such stuff. But it was still funn(:
Today, CG was soso lah, just that idk why, but Linda was kinda staring at me and she seemed in pain, idk why. Hope things will be better for CG(:
I really need to focus and finish up my work..sighs..I will manage my time well..or rather I have to! Charis, STOP being a slacker! ..
Okay, today naughty Joyce wanted to take random photo of me .. luckily, she didn't manage to(: I ran away then was close to Esther then she poke her face next to mine zzz-.-" so had to take lorhz.. hha. monsther quite funny. And Joyce a bit crazy today, she went to wear Ben's slipper for 1 side, and walk around with one side black, and one side white then still tell me someone stole her slipper-.-" lame lahh Joyce!
Okay, gtg finish up my work(: Tata! God Bless(:
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA!!! 6th June..Labels: CG, feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
A God who answers our prayers in His timing(:
ILY GOD<3
Hey! Sry for not posting for quite long again...zzzz. nvm. I always start off by saying that. So...1 week has boomeranged past. So fast. I can't stand it. I wish things could move slower. Anyways, I think nobody actually reads my dead blog. I want people to read, sheesh. nvm.
Okay.. so yesterday was omega funn, we made lemon squares and chocolate slices. mhm. yum! lemon squares were nicer for me because I don't fancy chocolate. Anyways, I dunno how to finish so much. It's a lot. really. Today Cheryl was like did you forget your chocolate slice, then I was a bit stunned. I brought home what, why I got extra. Then, when I came home I realised that yesterday someone asked if those she was carrying were esther, mine and [i forgot who], then esther say yes, then I told her it's not mine!! then she say they will know-.- Then end up got extra zzz. I think it was supposed to be Theresa's. haha. Feel quite paiseh cos Cheryl brought it in a nice bag some more. haha. now she has to bring it back home and eat it, HAHAHA.
Well, yesterday I almost couldn't come like cos mum said I really have to buck up on weak subjects so I was really sad. Like super afraid cannot go. Dad helped me ask through the week but it didn't work, she just said NO, like really firm NO. And being my mum, it's really hard to change her decision once she's made it. So I prayed like during lunch then if it is God's will, let me go lah. So Dad asked and SURPRISINGLY, she said YES. omg. I was overjoyed. Like WOW. God's so amazing, He never fails us, and I guess He knew that I wanted to chill out and all. yep. All praise be unto God!<3
Oh, I forgot to say about the baking part. Well, our group had 4 people, others had 2 so we made double portions. Quite cool(: Well, kinda made new friends(: And like my group was Vic, Jas and Kang. Yeah, they were quite friendly and stuff. I think most of the mixing was done by Vic & Kang cos Jasmine and me are like not very good at such stuff. But it was still funn(:
Today, CG was soso lah, just that idk why, but Linda was kinda staring at me and she seemed in pain, idk why. Hope things will be better for CG(:
I really need to focus and finish up my work..sighs..I will manage my time well..or rather I have to! Charis, STOP being a slacker! ..
Okay, today naughty Joyce wanted to take random photo of me .. luckily, she didn't manage to(: I ran away then was close to Esther then she poke her face next to mine zzz-.-" so had to take lorhz.. hha. monsther quite funny. And Joyce a bit crazy today, she went to wear Ben's slipper for 1 side, and walk around with one side black, and one side white then still tell me someone stole her slipper-.-" lame lahh Joyce!
Okay, gtg finish up my work(: Tata! God Bless(:
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA!!! 6th June..Labels: CG, feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Everlasting, Unfailing GOD<3
I stand in awe(:
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
I know I've been tardy with updating my blog. Anyway, this week is tiring/hurting/pleasing/... the list goes on. Mixed feelings and stuff. I know I've been wavering a lot. I've been hurting so much inside me and yet I continue to forgive, no one ever realises that. When they're angry, they expect an apology but when I'm hurt and stuff, they care less. Well, I guess I really need someone to be my real friend. I've really gone from bad to worse. And I'm forgiving them again for like the millionth time. That's exaggerated but oh how it hurts.
Today's LIVE! was surprisingly good(: I went there like with so many things ont he back of my mind and I was super anxious and all, worrying about whether I could go for party after that or not. I really tried to act like myself though I was really stoning just sitting there. And my heart really hurt so much. It's really like one minute everything was fine and the next it was all gone. emptiness. Well, worship started and I really couldn't focus at all. It was like I was worrying like crazy. Then, it really occurred to me that I have to really cast all my burdens on God and He will really help me. So when they prayed in the middle of worship and yeah, asked us to reflect and stuff, I dunno why but I suddenly started breaking down for no reason. It was like all the pain was letting go and stuff. And I uttered like a prayer to worship Him and ask Him to remove all worries/fears and all. Then, continued worship and stuff and I was still tearing a little. After that, I started to really worship God and started to focusing on Him. Then, lifted my hands up and I felt so relaxed and at peace suddenly and really just lost myself in worship, yeah. Thank God. After that was sermon by Pastor Daniel Chua, quite good. It was to sit, walk & stand for Christ! yep. I was kinda like smsing dad to check if mum allowed me to go for party during sermon. He told me mum wasn't happy so I decided like on the spot that I'm not gonna make mum unhappy and I should honor my parents as it is one of the ten commandments so yes I did. I told dad I wouldn't go. At first, I felt a lil' sad but then after a while, I was quite proud of myself that I obeyed my parents and made them happy(: Closing song was good. yep. "I do not need to see it to belive it" really worshipped God(: worship totally spoke to me today. I loved it. This is one of the awesomest services I've ever gone to.
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Okay, well God is seriously awesomezzz!!! <3>
Anyways, ROCs was quite funn but tiring. Our group won for the Task 6 thingy. Yeah, quite cool. I know everyone only cares about the model and stuff. It's always like that. And the person who goes on stage yahyah. It always happens but I'm still glad that we won(: thanks(: we made it!
Tomorrow got CG and stuff, it's gonna be an awesome day!! Must think positive(: kays, tata for now.
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
CHARISH<3Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
Everlasting, Unfailing GOD<3
I stand in awe(:
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
I know I've been tardy with updating my blog. Anyway, this week is tiring/hurting/pleasing/... the list goes on. Mixed feelings and stuff. I know I've been wavering a lot. I've been hurting so much inside me and yet I continue to forgive, no one ever realises that. When they're angry, they expect an apology but when I'm hurt and stuff, they care less. Well, I guess I really need someone to be my real friend. I've really gone from bad to worse. And I'm forgiving them again for like the millionth time. That's exaggerated but oh how it hurts.
Today's LIVE! was surprisingly good(: I went there like with so many things ont he back of my mind and I was super anxious and all, worrying about whether I could go for party after that or not. I really tried to act like myself though I was really stoning just sitting there. And my heart really hurt so much. It's really like one minute everything was fine and the next it was all gone. emptiness. Well, worship started and I really couldn't focus at all. It was like I was worrying like crazy. Then, it really occurred to me that I have to really cast all my burdens on God and He will really help me. So when they prayed in the middle of worship and yeah, asked us to reflect and stuff, I dunno why but I suddenly started breaking down for no reason. It was like all the pain was letting go and stuff. And I uttered like a prayer to worship Him and ask Him to remove all worries/fears and all. Then, continued worship and stuff and I was still tearing a little. After that, I started to really worship God and started to focusing on Him. Then, lifted my hands up and I felt so relaxed and at peace suddenly and really just lost myself in worship, yeah. Thank God. After that was sermon by Pastor Daniel Chua, quite good. It was to sit, walk & stand for Christ! yep. I was kinda like smsing dad to check if mum allowed me to go for party during sermon. He told me mum wasn't happy so I decided like on the spot that I'm not gonna make mum unhappy and I should honor my parents as it is one of the ten commandments so yes I did. I told dad I wouldn't go. At first, I felt a lil' sad but then after a while, I was quite proud of myself that I obeyed my parents and made them happy(: Closing song was good. yep. "I do not need to see it to belive it" really worshipped God(: worship totally spoke to me today. I loved it. This is one of the awesomest services I've ever gone to.
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Okay, well God is seriously awesomezzz!!! <3>
Anyways, ROCs was quite funn but tiring. Our group won for the Task 6 thingy. Yeah, quite cool. I know everyone only cares about the model and stuff. It's always like that. And the person who goes on stage yahyah. It always happens but I'm still glad that we won(: thanks(: we made it!
Tomorrow got CG and stuff, it's gonna be an awesome day!! Must think positive(: kays, tata for now.
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
CHARISH<3Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Father Lord,
I surrender solely & completely to you:D
Use me, Mould me, Lead me, Walk beside me, I give my life to the Potter's Hand(:
Life has been pretty much okay. Exams are over but loads of assignments to do...& I'm getting physically drained out. It really seems that everyone is just sliding away from me. It's like in a whoosh it's all gone. I'm kinda sad. But yeah, maybe it's partly me. On Friday, I dunno why but I got super angry at them and yeah, I think I just lost myself. But I realised I was suffering
inside me and if I just continued like that, I would be the one suffering so I committed everything to God and yeah, asked Him for self-control and after a while, I really felt like not so angry at them and treated them like normal again.Thank God, really. I guess now I need to take a step back, maybe I've been taking advantage of some people or maybe both sides have changed. I don't
know. But all I'm gonna do is just commit this whole thing to God and really hope it works(: I really don't want to tell the person in the face but oh how it hurts inside...
Okay, maybe that sounded emo but that's really true. Anyways, week before last week had LIVE! yay! Sermon was good. Our motto is "Love God, Love People, Go & Change the World" that's really true and as I just sat there listening to him talk about how many confirmations they got on the motto and how it actually IS in the bible, I was just amazed. It sounded so real and yes, now I'm
trying to do the second part, Love People. Sometimes I do find it difficult to love the unlovable but since God created them, I really should. So yep, I'm trying and I'm also trying a little bit of the go change the world part but it's not carried out yet. I'll need help in that. Okay, that's for LIVE! Today's CG was quite okay luhh. Meant to be birthday surprise for Vic but it didn't work out:( Quite sad. I was kinda expecting it, haiz. But anyways, I guess she was quite happy with the stuff we gave her. And thanks Linda for the cake and all the stuff you provided!(:
To my dearest friend:"There seems to be a gap between us now. I dont know why but I sense it. Every time I ask something, you just answer and I'm really just afraid there's something really wrong. I guess both of us has changed. But I'm clinging on and I hope you would to. We'll soon be back together and support each other I hope. Keeping you in prayer(:" -Charis
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The top part is all what I typed quite some time ago.
UPDATED :
hmm..last week has been really hectic and I was thoroughly drained out. had quite a few Handbells practices. And loads of assignments. Yep, all last minute and stuff. Every day, I just struggled to complete them. Al least, now it's all over. This week is ROCs and tomorrow we are going to Old School site:D and walk down the "100 steps" It's gonna be cool. I'm looking forward to
it.
LIVE! was okay. It was apt. yep. Only at the last part did I feel God's presence but yeah overall it was good(: Next week, LIVE! party:D whoots! Hope I can go(: hmm. today's CG was very disciplined. It was apt and good(: Linda can control the class now and that's good(:
So many events happening in Term 3, esp. for Handbells. persevere. God, pls bring me through this period even as I am gonna be so busy in Term 3.okay...I think this post is so crappy. Anyway, I'm trying my best to read qi tian fastt. But to no avail:( Okay..hope I can go for Spikenardz too:D
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
Charis(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE!!! :D 23rd May
thanks for vbeing a nicee friend(: all the best in everything that you do(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!! :D
thanks for being so kind and nice to me(: get well soon(:
Labels: Birthday Gal..., CG, feelings, GOD, handbells(:, school and school and school..., Testimony(:
Father Lord,
I surrender solely & completely to you:D
Use me, Mould me, Lead me, Walk beside me, I give my life to the Potter's Hand(:
Life has been pretty much okay. Exams are over but loads of assignments to do...& I'm getting physically drained out. It really seems that everyone is just sliding away from me. It's like in a whoosh it's all gone. I'm kinda sad. But yeah, maybe it's partly me. On Friday, I dunno why but I got super angry at them and yeah, I think I just lost myself. But I realised I was suffering
inside me and if I just continued like that, I would be the one suffering so I committed everything to God and yeah, asked Him for self-control and after a while, I really felt like not so angry at them and treated them like normal again.Thank God, really. I guess now I need to take a step back, maybe I've been taking advantage of some people or maybe both sides have changed. I don't
know. But all I'm gonna do is just commit this whole thing to God and really hope it works(: I really don't want to tell the person in the face but oh how it hurts inside...
Okay, maybe that sounded emo but that's really true. Anyways, week before last week had LIVE! yay! Sermon was good. Our motto is "Love God, Love People, Go & Change the World" that's really true and as I just sat there listening to him talk about how many confirmations they got on the motto and how it actually IS in the bible, I was just amazed. It sounded so real and yes, now I'm
trying to do the second part, Love People. Sometimes I do find it difficult to love the unlovable but since God created them, I really should. So yep, I'm trying and I'm also trying a little bit of the go change the world part but it's not carried out yet. I'll need help in that. Okay, that's for LIVE! Today's CG was quite okay luhh. Meant to be birthday surprise for Vic but it didn't work out:( Quite sad. I was kinda expecting it, haiz. But anyways, I guess she was quite happy with the stuff we gave her. And thanks Linda for the cake and all the stuff you provided!(:
To my dearest friend:"There seems to be a gap between us now. I dont know why but I sense it. Every time I ask something, you just answer and I'm really just afraid there's something really wrong. I guess both of us has changed. But I'm clinging on and I hope you would to. We'll soon be back together and support each other I hope. Keeping you in prayer(:" -Charis
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The top part is all what I typed quite some time ago.
UPDATED :
hmm..last week has been really hectic and I was thoroughly drained out. had quite a few Handbells practices. And loads of assignments. Yep, all last minute and stuff. Every day, I just struggled to complete them. Al least, now it's all over. This week is ROCs and tomorrow we are going to Old School site:D and walk down the "100 steps" It's gonna be cool. I'm looking forward to
it.
LIVE! was okay. It was apt. yep. Only at the last part did I feel God's presence but yeah overall it was good(: Next week, LIVE! party:D whoots! Hope I can go(: hmm. today's CG was very disciplined. It was apt and good(: Linda can control the class now and that's good(:
So many events happening in Term 3, esp. for Handbells. persevere. God, pls bring me through this period even as I am gonna be so busy in Term 3.okay...I think this post is so crappy. Anyway, I'm trying my best to read qi tian fastt. But to no avail:( Okay..hope I can go for Spikenardz too:D
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
Charis(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE!!! :D 23rd May
thanks for vbeing a nicee friend(: all the best in everything that you do(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!! :D
thanks for being so kind and nice to me(: get well soon(:
Labels: Birthday Gal..., CG, feelings, GOD, handbells(:, school and school and school..., Testimony(:
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"there's something that won't let me stop." - quoted from Charlie Gordon -
ALL PRAISE BE TO GOD! He works in magnificent ways(:
Heya! I'm so extremely xian because history is really irritating. You have to mug 3 chapters and only 2 friggin' questions come out, like!?! haiz... Mind-mapping is kinda funn I should say(: but quotes for lit. are still bombarding me. That's the reason why the quote is up there by Charlie Gordon!!! eeks.
Moving on to the brighter side on life, common tests has been wrecking my brains and burning all my brain cells. YAY! 3 more to go and I'm FREE at last(: I've been mugging so much and all, mainly because I've been slacking so much and just do super last-minute revision. Very bad example. Anyways, finally there's a long weekend. I think I slacked way too much yesterday:( Hope that won't affect the time I have let to study...
Well, today I'm kinda glad that I was able to show some sort of help although it wasn't even helpful cos I'm such a blurrblob.
It goes like that...I was at Swensen's waiting to wash my hands.
Indian lady whose friend was inside the toilet talked to me.
"There's someone inside the toilet so wait for a while." *smiles at me*
*nods and mutters okay*
"Oh, do you live around here?"
*getting suspicious and panicky* "Why?"
"Do you know where Balmond road is?"
"Erm no. Sorry." *feels guilty*
"You live around here?"
"Yah."
"And you don't know where it is?"
*shakes head helplessly*
"I heard that I overshot it, it's in that direction I heard." *points in direction*
*gives her the blurr look*
-long silence-
"Sorry arh girl, wait so long."
"It's okay."
-washes hands-
*pushes door open and holds it for her*
"Thank you!"
This conversation with her was kinda funny. Like I was given the opportunity to help but I just couldn't. Well, I guess it isn't really like showing help but yeah. Unusual experience. And actually the person she was talking about was my mum I found out. Cos my mum went to the toilet to wash hands first-.-" Then she asked my mum. LOL. Anyways, I had been praying about having the opportunity to extend a helping hand in a way but it never did happen so after a while, I kinda forgot about it but yeah. God never forgets and never fails us. He has his timing(:
Talking about God's timing, I would like to talk about something even though it was quite some time ago, I think this is amini testimony(: X didn't want to talk to me last year cos of some disputes and blah. I kept on praying and praying like for the first half of year but it never did happen but instead became worst, I tried not to loose hope but after a while it seemed normal so I couldn't be bothered and stopped praying. At the end of last year, she really said sorry and admitted her wrong and all. My heart was overwhelmed. I had forgotten about this completely and those earnest prayers of mine were answered by God's grace(: PERSEVERE. God always keeps His promises that He will always answer our prayers, so we just have to believe that it will happen and continue to interceed for it. It's God's timing, NOT OURS! I think God was really testing my patience. But I think I failed it, so I'm on this new journey and I'm persevering. Maybe God's giving me a second chance to prove myself and I SHALL(: This time this new journey is totally different, a new dimension and a definitely tougher one. I'm gonna overcome it! He made this happen to me for a reason, DEFINITELY. It was not by chance or coincidence! If you want me to share with you more, I can(: But I think it shouldn't be so explicitly put here, haha. GOD is just amazing. I know He's always by my side, and will never leave you nor forsake you as He promised(: Somehow, I feel that God always does things when you least expect it, kinda cool(:
Common tests are generally okay, just that I really think I flunked Biology but everything's in God's hands. I shouldn't be worrying(: At peace(: I wrote super long for Lit. essay yesterday haha. My hand was aching like crazy after that hehe.
Denise was super funny today. She tried to suprise me but I think it didn't work out. HAHA. She wanted to suprise me with Hershey's we were going to share together for recess. hehe. It was definitely delicious Denise(: Thanks for the lil' treats which includes your awesomely-baked cookies(: We ate the almond one and the cookies n cream one. 2 packs 0.0 so I think each of us took approx. 1/3 of the 2 packets of it. hahahaha. yummy:D
Last night, I was just chatting to Grace and she said I'm an interesting person, haha.Serious and cranky at the same time and my actions are unpredictable haha. Well, quite true I should say. I get totally serious and worked up when there's a time limit to things and all. Then get a bit too tensed up, Denise thinks I'm too stressed, that's why she gave me hershey's hahahaha. Then, I can also get super hyper when I'm like I dunno, not really tensed up haha.
I think I really need a friend whom I can be seriously frank with. It's hard but it's good to have someone like that. I'm hoping. Hmmm...it's really hard to share your darkest secrets with someone even though she may be close to you. It's still hard because she may criticise you and all and won't dare to open up anymore. I want someone who will be open and both of us will listen to what each other has to say. HOPE. BELIEVE. TRUST.
I know I'm really trying to control my emotions. It's just beneath everything. I really wish it wouldn't happen this week. At least after Common Tests please. I know I've poured it out to a few people who do care for me, at least to a certain extent. Yep, and I'm feeling better. I know I shouldn't be worrying. Esther says its hard to manage between that and studies and I really agree with that. Just hope God will help me(: Bring me through these tough times that I face now(:
Okay, this post is rather long. But I think it's one which has some important stuff in it, haha. Hope you liked this post, LOL. Anyways, all the best for the remaining CTs!!!:D byebye(:
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, school and school and school..., Testimony(:
"there's something that won't let me stop." - quoted from Charlie Gordon -
ALL PRAISE BE TO GOD! He works in magnificent ways(:
Heya! I'm so extremely xian because history is really irritating. You have to mug 3 chapters and only 2 friggin' questions come out, like!?! haiz... Mind-mapping is kinda funn I should say(: but quotes for lit. are still bombarding me. That's the reason why the quote is up there by Charlie Gordon!!! eeks.
Moving on to the brighter side on life, common tests has been wrecking my brains and burning all my brain cells. YAY! 3 more to go and I'm FREE at last(: I've been mugging so much and all, mainly because I've been slacking so much and just do super last-minute revision. Very bad example. Anyways, finally there's a long weekend. I think I slacked way too much yesterday:( Hope that won't affect the time I have let to study...
Well, today I'm kinda glad that I was able to show some sort of help although it wasn't even helpful cos I'm such a blurrblob.
It goes like that...I was at Swensen's waiting to wash my hands.
Indian lady whose friend was inside the toilet talked to me.
"There's someone inside the toilet so wait for a while." *smiles at me*
*nods and mutters okay*
"Oh, do you live around here?"
*getting suspicious and panicky* "Why?"
"Do you know where Balmond road is?"
"Erm no. Sorry." *feels guilty*
"You live around here?"
"Yah."
"And you don't know where it is?"
*shakes head helplessly*
"I heard that I overshot it, it's in that direction I heard." *points in direction*
*gives her the blurr look*
-long silence-
"Sorry arh girl, wait so long."
"It's okay."
-washes hands-
*pushes door open and holds it for her*
"Thank you!"
This conversation with her was kinda funny. Like I was given the opportunity to help but I just couldn't. Well, I guess it isn't really like showing help but yeah. Unusual experience. And actually the person she was talking about was my mum I found out. Cos my mum went to the toilet to wash hands first-.-" Then she asked my mum. LOL. Anyways, I had been praying about having the opportunity to extend a helping hand in a way but it never did happen so after a while, I kinda forgot about it but yeah. God never forgets and never fails us. He has his timing(:
Talking about God's timing, I would like to talk about something even though it was quite some time ago, I think this is amini testimony(: X didn't want to talk to me last year cos of some disputes and blah. I kept on praying and praying like for the first half of year but it never did happen but instead became worst, I tried not to loose hope but after a while it seemed normal so I couldn't be bothered and stopped praying. At the end of last year, she really said sorry and admitted her wrong and all. My heart was overwhelmed. I had forgotten about this completely and those earnest prayers of mine were answered by God's grace(: PERSEVERE. God always keeps His promises that He will always answer our prayers, so we just have to believe that it will happen and continue to interceed for it. It's God's timing, NOT OURS! I think God was really testing my patience. But I think I failed it, so I'm on this new journey and I'm persevering. Maybe God's giving me a second chance to prove myself and I SHALL(: This time this new journey is totally different, a new dimension and a definitely tougher one. I'm gonna overcome it! He made this happen to me for a reason, DEFINITELY. It was not by chance or coincidence! If you want me to share with you more, I can(: But I think it shouldn't be so explicitly put here, haha. GOD is just amazing. I know He's always by my side, and will never leave you nor forsake you as He promised(: Somehow, I feel that God always does things when you least expect it, kinda cool(:
Common tests are generally okay, just that I really think I flunked Biology but everything's in God's hands. I shouldn't be worrying(: At peace(: I wrote super long for Lit. essay yesterday haha. My hand was aching like crazy after that hehe.
Denise was super funny today. She tried to suprise me but I think it didn't work out. HAHA. She wanted to suprise me with Hershey's we were going to share together for recess. hehe. It was definitely delicious Denise(: Thanks for the lil' treats which includes your awesomely-baked cookies(: We ate the almond one and the cookies n cream one. 2 packs 0.0 so I think each of us took approx. 1/3 of the 2 packets of it. hahahaha. yummy:D
Last night, I was just chatting to Grace and she said I'm an interesting person, haha.Serious and cranky at the same time and my actions are unpredictable haha. Well, quite true I should say. I get totally serious and worked up when there's a time limit to things and all. Then get a bit too tensed up, Denise thinks I'm too stressed, that's why she gave me hershey's hahahaha. Then, I can also get super hyper when I'm like I dunno, not really tensed up haha.
I think I really need a friend whom I can be seriously frank with. It's hard but it's good to have someone like that. I'm hoping. Hmmm...it's really hard to share your darkest secrets with someone even though she may be close to you. It's still hard because she may criticise you and all and won't dare to open up anymore. I want someone who will be open and both of us will listen to what each other has to say. HOPE. BELIEVE. TRUST.
I know I'm really trying to control my emotions. It's just beneath everything. I really wish it wouldn't happen this week. At least after Common Tests please. I know I've poured it out to a few people who do care for me, at least to a certain extent. Yep, and I'm feeling better. I know I shouldn't be worrying. Esther says its hard to manage between that and studies and I really agree with that. Just hope God will help me(: Bring me through these tough times that I face now(:
Okay, this post is rather long. But I think it's one which has some important stuff in it, haha. Hope you liked this post, LOL. Anyways, all the best for the remaining CTs!!!:D byebye(:
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Family<3
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Friends:)
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Having fun:)
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Venezia's gelato:D
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The awesome challenging Maths:)
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Have eternal life
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Draw closer to God<3
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Get 255 and above for PSLE
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France:)
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Orlando, USA:)
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London:)
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New converse shoes:)
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ZIG markers(:
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Wallet(:
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New soft bean toy:)
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SONY camera(:
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ipod nano(chromatic)(: i didn't know this would be fulfilled but i'm glad it has been(:
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Life is crazy
But what matters is how you deal with it(:
Hey all, feeling much better and stuff. thanks for all those people who were comforted me and stuff:D Well, the weekend has passed real fast. So, Saturday was craziness for me. plain craziness. hah. After tuition, rushed to Suntec for ISO then checked out the shops then realised THIS FASHION wasn't there. So had to change to FOX. All survey forms were rushily ammended. haha. then commenced with observational study which was dead boring:/ ah wells, then survey part was crazy, we ran all over Suntec to find people. to no avail. i was perspiring like nobody's business and we got lost:( zzz -__- it was still quite funn hahah. thanks guys(:
After which, I rushed to church and was late:( okay that seriously sucks:( sooo...Kevin preached. about a lot of stuff. and all. I dunno but I just couldn't concentrate throughout the whole service. cos of just so many things around me that was bothering. i dunno. it really sucked. i hope it won't happen again.
Then, Dad fetched me to performance class. oh gosh, everyone's parents were there, mine wasn't. And I felt just like crap inside. Then, played first. It went okay, a bit of stumbles, but it was bothering me. didn't play with any emotion whatsoever. Mum rushed and came late cos of misunderstandings. Rushed to no avail. Sighs. It was crap. Anyway, so went home. A lot of misunderstandings sorted out. My day was :( . eight-to-eight. I was drained.
Sunday was coolest manz!:D Had cg, went okay lah. Then, Daddy preached at GraceStar. So cool right? haha. went there to support. then yah just listen and stuff. Then Aunty Liza say I must give the present they were making to Daddy so I did lo. haha. After church, went to Vivo to eat Father's day lunch(: lovelt lunch. dee-licious stuff:D and we took pics with daddy:D haha. and then, went Challenger to shop. hah. then, went home, napped a bit. After that, went for uber late dinner at Crystal Jade. And yeah, yummy food too!:)
Today, I did the cutting out of my design for my cushion cover:D It turned out really nice haha. super proud of it! Go see on fb if you haven't. I will sew in yiyi's house or at school. I haven't decided haha. But design not complete cos words still havent sew yet, heh. okay..today did quite a fair bit of stuff bahh:) haha. shall get back to work now.
byee!Labels: CG, Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays
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In need..
I've suddenly just lost it. HELP.
I'm tired, I'm drained.
I dunno why. The emptiness is coming back:( i feel like crap. its hurting. i wish life could be better and stuff. The emptiness comes when I think about it. Outside my house, just outside. I always feel the odd one out. There's no one to lean on, no one there to support me. And really just no one. Even when I feel hurt, really no one cares. Some ppl just say hey, dont feel so sad and stuff. But no one really understands. They have their life, their life is almost perfect. but maybe not. I don't know. My life is volatile like a yo-yo.
But really GOD has brought me through these times even when I felt ditched. I cried out to God so many times. Yet He never rejected me or turned a deaf ear to me. Why? Because He loves me. And I surely know that. My sole confidante is GOD and Him alone!
All I wanna do now is just worship Him and stuff. I wanna go to church too! I dunno but every time I step in there, I just sense God's presence overwhelming me .. (: I love church.
So anyway, March - April was like a total change/switch for me. I dunno why. But things changed so much. I let go of some friends and made new ones. At first, it felt bad but later it became okay. I accepted and stuff. But now, I dunno I just want some back. Specifically this person. She used to care for me a lot. Not that she was my best friend. She was just always there for me. I mean even though I didn't really always want to talk to her, but like her smses and stuff were just comforting and it really made me know someone out there actually cared for me. She was the one who kinda made me wake up and just really start to learn to rely on God. I am quite sure God used her to like tell me to kinda just rely on Him completely. You might read this. You might not. But you've been such an awesome friend to me that I don't want to let go of this. We haven't gone our separate ways but we just aren't that close anymore. I hope we will just become closer again. ILY!
I feel quite different now. Like I dunno. I'm just drifting somewhere, just somewhere where no one knows. I'm just drifting. and drifting. and drifting. I feel empty. lost. and I just really need someone to talk to me. I dunno who its gonna be. But I hope, I hope there'll be someone.
bye for now.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Testimony(:
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GOD I luv you A LOT<3>
Thanks for bringing me through all the difficult times & for always being there for me when I needed you(:
Hello! I'm back after a long long time. Anyways, loads of stuff have happened(: Went for family holiday which was GOOD! Good time of bonding as a family and it was just really nicee(: Bought clothes and handbells shoes(: and yah. haha. Last day, we went to visit parents' friends. The food was really good. loved the stew(: And met one of their daughters who was really friendly to us. She's called Gracia(: She's kinda nice, haha. So before we went there, I actually remembered this guy called Timothy. I have no idea why. I know when I was P1 I kept playing with him. I think I was crazy then but yeah. So I was thinking "Hey, I'm gonna see him hahahaha". But, I was really wrong manz. He's totally changed and he looks like his brothers and he wears contacts and I wasn't even sure if it was him or his brothers-.-" Oh wells.. LOL. I think this trip was really good because my family really bonded quite a fair bit and just like depended on God a lot. I dunno but I felt it or maybe it was just me cos I changed and I committed and relied on God a lot this trip, esp. safety and all. Praise be to God that we came back safely, unharmed and did not get swine flu and all. PRAISE BE TO GOD FOREVER!<3
So Monday, Daddy took leave. Mummy woke me up and told me I had piano o.O I was like what duh.. but oh wells. So after piano lesson went to eat then so qiao, da gu and san gu came so they joined us for lunch. Then we brought them to "ji de chi" the dessert place which is the awesomest around(: Then, came back. After that, Daddy asked if I wanted to go cycling cos everyone wanted to go so I was like okay. Cos normally I ride the one with training wheels:p very suck-ish I know. And it's really tiring. So yeah. Went to East Coast Park to cycle. Then, I was sooo scared though Daddy already said he had confidence in me cos I could skate-skoot.
Then Jie taught me a little bit then I could ride le! WHOO:D I finally can ride hahahah. Jie told me last time I could ride even before she could which was like when I was 5 or 6. zzz. Can't remember. Mummy & I learnt how to cycle haha:D GREAT ACCOMPLISHMENT but Mummy was like almost going to fall a couple of times. In the end, she fell at the last part:/ And stupid me just carried on cycling cos I was in front so I didn't know. And Jie chased after me all the way. Feel really bad:/ So yeah. Before the cycle back which was when Mummy fell, we went to Bedok Jetty and Daddy & Jie competed like who could balance on the bicycle longer hahahah. took videos. It was really funny then another competition was to get through btw. the bench and the railing, haha. quite fun(: So anyway, really happy I can cycle le!:D
After cycling, Daddy brought us to Long Beach for dinner(: The food is really good(: I loved the geoduck A LOT(: dee-licious! And facing the sea to eat with the breeze. AWESOME NIGHT(: 1st time Mummy is willing to cycle, be happy to do outdoor activity and have dinner by the sea, hahhaa. Monday was AWESOME!:D I love my family(: Yesterday, I wet swimming at Club. Then, had seafood hor fun. Then, went to Club Library to do some work and use Mummy's mini lappie(: haha quite cool! Then, night went to IMM to look at Jie's SONY lappie. Was about to buy but she was so picky about specks of dust and dots of dirt so didn't-.-" Ooh. I bought Roti Mum(: Dee-licious! I ate one there hahahah. This Saturday is busybusybusy manz. I'm fully packed. I'm gonna rush almost everywhere. Hectic. God will help me pull through(: Sorry for the super long update but if you've read until here, thanks for your patience(: K nights(: It's actually morning of Wednesday so I talking in terms of Wednesday morning, LOL. Nights(:
Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Eloi Eloi!
GOD you reign forever<3
Heya! I'm back! hahaha. nothing much. but yeah, today just slacked a lot and chatted a lot and just lazed around cos I was super extremely bored. Today, talked to Adelaine for quite some time(: She's one of the sweetest people around(: She's super cute lah. haha. Gonna help her do up her blog properly soon(: haha.
Esther and Liurong are quite funny too(: hahahhaa. And guess what? Nikki remembers me! like omg. fellow PAT'S schoolhouse mates:) have to meet up with her when she comes back from HK which is I dunno when-.-" But anyways, jiayous Nikki!:D Hope to see ya soon!
One of the awesomest songs is: GRATITUDE by Nichole Nordeman!
Send some rain, would You send some rain?
'Cause the earth is dry and needs to drink again
And the sun is high and we are sinking in the shade
Would You send a cloud, thunder long and loud?
Let the sky grow black and send some mercy down
Surely You can see that we are thirsty and afraid
But maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to thirst for You
How to bless the very sun that warms our face
If You never send us rain
Daily bread, give us daily bread
Bless our bodies, keep our children fed
Fill our cups, then fill them up again tonight
Wrap us up and warm us through
Tucked away beneath our sturdy roofs
Let us slumber safe from danger's view this time
Or maybe not, not today
Maybe You'll provide in other ways
And if that's the case..
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
A lesson learned to hunger after You
That a starry sky offers a better view if no roof is overhead
And if we never taste that bread
Oh, the differences that often are between
What we want and what we really need
So grant us peace, Jesus, grant us peace
Move our hearts to hear a single beat
Between alibis and enemies tonight
Or maybe not, not today
Peace might be another world away
And if that's the case...
(Chorus)
We'll give thanks to You
With gratitude
For lessons learned in how to trust in You
That we are blessed beyond what we could ever dream
In abundance or in need
And if You never grant us peace
But Jesus, would You please...
Yay! The lyrics are there! Moving lyrics(: I love the song(: Okay. Eloi Eloi by Joce has very meaningful lyrics too. But I'm too lazy to type it out haha.
Anyways, I've been talking so much about it but I haven't put it into action so I guess it's time that I do so...got no guts. sighs. I will have to do it for God(: so yeah have to put myself together and put into ACTION:D
Okay, you know what? As I looked through all my super old posts like 2007/2008 posts, it was like all very sadsad one (well not all, but most) and really just about mundane stuff and it was really like what's happening in my life and the childish naiive-ness is like clearly seen! I guess I've grown more like with God and I don't post those stuff anymore. I'm not sure if it's good or bad but anyhow, I hope things will get better(:
It's currently okay(: In balance and stuff .. I'm contented:) okay.. gtg sleep now(: tata.
Love God, Love People, Go Change The World,
charis(:
P.S. you can go and see my archives and see like the total difference but its still interesting to see my old posts hahahahah.
Labels: Crap..., feelings, GOD, Holidays, Lyrics(:
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A God who answers our prayers in His timing(:
ILY GOD<3
Hey! Sry for not posting for quite long again...zzzz. nvm. I always start off by saying that. So...1 week has boomeranged past. So fast. I can't stand it. I wish things could move slower. Anyways, I think nobody actually reads my dead blog. I want people to read, sheesh. nvm.
Okay.. so yesterday was omega funn, we made lemon squares and chocolate slices. mhm. yum! lemon squares were nicer for me because I don't fancy chocolate. Anyways, I dunno how to finish so much. It's a lot. really. Today Cheryl was like did you forget your chocolate slice, then I was a bit stunned. I brought home what, why I got extra. Then, when I came home I realised that yesterday someone asked if those she was carrying were esther, mine and [i forgot who], then esther say yes, then I told her it's not mine!! then she say they will know-.- Then end up got extra zzz. I think it was supposed to be Theresa's. haha. Feel quite paiseh cos Cheryl brought it in a nice bag some more. haha. now she has to bring it back home and eat it, HAHAHA.
Well, yesterday I almost couldn't come like cos mum said I really have to buck up on weak subjects so I was really sad. Like super afraid cannot go. Dad helped me ask through the week but it didn't work, she just said NO, like really firm NO. And being my mum, it's really hard to change her decision once she's made it. So I prayed like during lunch then if it is God's will, let me go lah. So Dad asked and SURPRISINGLY, she said YES. omg. I was overjoyed. Like WOW. God's so amazing, He never fails us, and I guess He knew that I wanted to chill out and all. yep. All praise be unto God!<3
Oh, I forgot to say about the baking part. Well, our group had 4 people, others had 2 so we made double portions. Quite cool(: Well, kinda made new friends(: And like my group was Vic, Jas and Kang. Yeah, they were quite friendly and stuff. I think most of the mixing was done by Vic & Kang cos Jasmine and me are like not very good at such stuff. But it was still funn(:
Today, CG was soso lah, just that idk why, but Linda was kinda staring at me and she seemed in pain, idk why. Hope things will be better for CG(:
I really need to focus and finish up my work..sighs..I will manage my time well..or rather I have to! Charis, STOP being a slacker! ..
Okay, today naughty Joyce wanted to take random photo of me .. luckily, she didn't manage to(: I ran away then was close to Esther then she poke her face next to mine zzz-.-" so had to take lorhz.. hha. monsther quite funny. And Joyce a bit crazy today, she went to wear Ben's slipper for 1 side, and walk around with one side black, and one side white then still tell me someone stole her slipper-.-" lame lahh Joyce!
Okay, gtg finish up my work(: Tata! God Bless(:
P.S. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TANYA!!! 6th June..Labels: CG, feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Everlasting, Unfailing GOD<3
I stand in awe(:
Joshua 1:9 "Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
I know I've been tardy with updating my blog. Anyway, this week is tiring/hurting/pleasing/... the list goes on. Mixed feelings and stuff. I know I've been wavering a lot. I've been hurting so much inside me and yet I continue to forgive, no one ever realises that. When they're angry, they expect an apology but when I'm hurt and stuff, they care less. Well, I guess I really need someone to be my real friend. I've really gone from bad to worse. And I'm forgiving them again for like the millionth time. That's exaggerated but oh how it hurts.
Today's LIVE! was surprisingly good(: I went there like with so many things ont he back of my mind and I was super anxious and all, worrying about whether I could go for party after that or not. I really tried to act like myself though I was really stoning just sitting there. And my heart really hurt so much. It's really like one minute everything was fine and the next it was all gone. emptiness. Well, worship started and I really couldn't focus at all. It was like I was worrying like crazy. Then, it really occurred to me that I have to really cast all my burdens on God and He will really help me. So when they prayed in the middle of worship and yeah, asked us to reflect and stuff, I dunno why but I suddenly started breaking down for no reason. It was like all the pain was letting go and stuff. And I uttered like a prayer to worship Him and ask Him to remove all worries/fears and all. Then, continued worship and stuff and I was still tearing a little. After that, I started to really worship God and started to focusing on Him. Then, lifted my hands up and I felt so relaxed and at peace suddenly and really just lost myself in worship, yeah. Thank God. After that was sermon by Pastor Daniel Chua, quite good. It was to sit, walk & stand for Christ! yep. I was kinda like smsing dad to check if mum allowed me to go for party during sermon. He told me mum wasn't happy so I decided like on the spot that I'm not gonna make mum unhappy and I should honor my parents as it is one of the ten commandments so yes I did. I told dad I wouldn't go. At first, I felt a lil' sad but then after a while, I was quite proud of myself that I obeyed my parents and made them happy(: Closing song was good. yep. "I do not need to see it to belive it" really worshipped God(: worship totally spoke to me today. I loved it. This is one of the awesomest services I've ever gone to.
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Okay, well God is seriously awesomezzz!!! <3>
Anyways, ROCs was quite funn but tiring. Our group won for the Task 6 thingy. Yeah, quite cool. I know everyone only cares about the model and stuff. It's always like that. And the person who goes on stage yahyah. It always happens but I'm still glad that we won(: thanks(: we made it!
Tomorrow got CG and stuff, it's gonna be an awesome day!! Must think positive(: kays, tata for now.
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
CHARISH<3Labels: feelings, GOD, Holidays, Testimony(:
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Father Lord,
I surrender solely & completely to you:D
Use me, Mould me, Lead me, Walk beside me, I give my life to the Potter's Hand(:
Life has been pretty much okay. Exams are over but loads of assignments to do...& I'm getting physically drained out. It really seems that everyone is just sliding away from me. It's like in a whoosh it's all gone. I'm kinda sad. But yeah, maybe it's partly me. On Friday, I dunno why but I got super angry at them and yeah, I think I just lost myself. But I realised I was suffering
inside me and if I just continued like that, I would be the one suffering so I committed everything to God and yeah, asked Him for self-control and after a while, I really felt like not so angry at them and treated them like normal again.Thank God, really. I guess now I need to take a step back, maybe I've been taking advantage of some people or maybe both sides have changed. I don't
know. But all I'm gonna do is just commit this whole thing to God and really hope it works(: I really don't want to tell the person in the face but oh how it hurts inside...
Okay, maybe that sounded emo but that's really true. Anyways, week before last week had LIVE! yay! Sermon was good. Our motto is "Love God, Love People, Go & Change the World" that's really true and as I just sat there listening to him talk about how many confirmations they got on the motto and how it actually IS in the bible, I was just amazed. It sounded so real and yes, now I'm
trying to do the second part, Love People. Sometimes I do find it difficult to love the unlovable but since God created them, I really should. So yep, I'm trying and I'm also trying a little bit of the go change the world part but it's not carried out yet. I'll need help in that. Okay, that's for LIVE! Today's CG was quite okay luhh. Meant to be birthday surprise for Vic but it didn't work out:( Quite sad. I was kinda expecting it, haiz. But anyways, I guess she was quite happy with the stuff we gave her. And thanks Linda for the cake and all the stuff you provided!(:
To my dearest friend:"There seems to be a gap between us now. I dont know why but I sense it. Every time I ask something, you just answer and I'm really just afraid there's something really wrong. I guess both of us has changed. But I'm clinging on and I hope you would to. We'll soon be back together and support each other I hope. Keeping you in prayer(:" -Charis
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The top part is all what I typed quite some time ago.
UPDATED :
hmm..last week has been really hectic and I was thoroughly drained out. had quite a few Handbells practices. And loads of assignments. Yep, all last minute and stuff. Every day, I just struggled to complete them. Al least, now it's all over. This week is ROCs and tomorrow we are going to Old School site:D and walk down the "100 steps" It's gonna be cool. I'm looking forward to
it.
LIVE! was okay. It was apt. yep. Only at the last part did I feel God's presence but yeah overall it was good(: Next week, LIVE! party:D whoots! Hope I can go(: hmm. today's CG was very disciplined. It was apt and good(: Linda can control the class now and that's good(:
So many events happening in Term 3, esp. for Handbells. persevere. God, pls bring me through this period even as I am gonna be so busy in Term 3.okay...I think this post is so crappy. Anyway, I'm trying my best to read qi tian fastt. But to no avail:( Okay..hope I can go for Spikenardz too:D
Love God, Love People, Go Change the World,
Charis(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINE!!! :D 23rd May
thanks for vbeing a nicee friend(: all the best in everything that you do(:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY THERESA!!! :D
thanks for being so kind and nice to me(: get well soon(:
Labels: Birthday Gal..., CG, feelings, GOD, handbells(:, school and school and school..., Testimony(:
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"there's something that won't let me stop." - quoted from Charlie Gordon -
ALL PRAISE BE TO GOD! He works in magnificent ways(:
Heya! I'm so extremely xian because history is really irritating. You have to mug 3 chapters and only 2 friggin' questions come out, like!?! haiz... Mind-mapping is kinda funn I should say(: but quotes for lit. are still bombarding me. That's the reason why the quote is up there by Charlie Gordon!!! eeks.
Moving on to the brighter side on life, common tests has been wrecking my brains and burning all my brain cells. YAY! 3 more to go and I'm FREE at last(: I've been mugging so much and all, mainly because I've been slacking so much and just do super last-minute revision. Very bad example. Anyways, finally there's a long weekend. I think I slacked way too much yesterday:( Hope that won't affect the time I have let to study...
Well, today I'm kinda glad that I was able to show some sort of help although it wasn't even helpful cos I'm such a blurrblob.
It goes like that...I was at Swensen's waiting to wash my hands.
Indian lady whose friend was inside the toilet talked to me.
"There's someone inside the toilet so wait for a while." *smiles at me*
*nods and mutters okay*
"Oh, do you live around here?"
*getting suspicious and panicky* "Why?"
"Do you know where Balmond road is?"
"Erm no. Sorry." *feels guilty*
"You live around here?"
"Yah."
"And you don't know where it is?"
*shakes head helplessly*
"I heard that I overshot it, it's in that direction I heard." *points in direction*
*gives her the blurr look*
-long silence-
"Sorry arh girl, wait so long."
"It's okay."
-washes hands-
*pushes door open and holds it for her*
"Thank you!"
This conversation with her was kinda funny. Like I was given the opportunity to help but I just couldn't. Well, I guess it isn't really like showing help but yeah. Unusual experience. And actually the person she was talking about was my mum I found out. Cos my mum went to the toilet to wash hands first-.-" Then she asked my mum. LOL. Anyways, I had been praying about having the opportunity to extend a helping hand in a way but it never did happen so after a while, I kinda forgot about it but yeah. God never forgets and never fails us. He has his timing(:
Talking about God's timing, I would like to talk about something even though it was quite some time ago, I think this is amini testimony(: X didn't want to talk to me last year cos of some disputes and blah. I kept on praying and praying like for the first half of year but it never did happen but instead became worst, I tried not to loose hope but after a while it seemed normal so I couldn't be bothered and stopped praying. At the end of last year, she really said sorry and admitted her wrong and all. My heart was overwhelmed. I had forgotten about this completely and those earnest prayers of mine were answered by God's grace(: PERSEVERE. God always keeps His promises that He will always answer our prayers, so we just have to believe that it will happen and continue to interceed for it. It's God's timing, NOT OURS! I think God was really testing my patience. But I think I failed it, so I'm on this new journey and I'm persevering. Maybe God's giving me a second chance to prove myself and I SHALL(: This time this new journey is totally different, a new dimension and a definitely tougher one. I'm gonna overcome it! He made this happen to me for a reason, DEFINITELY. It was not by chance or coincidence! If you want me to share with you more, I can(: But I think it shouldn't be so explicitly put here, haha. GOD is just amazing. I know He's always by my side, and will never leave you nor forsake you as He promised(: Somehow, I feel that God always does things when you least expect it, kinda cool(:
Common tests are generally okay, just that I really think I flunked Biology but everything's in God's hands. I shouldn't be worrying(: At peace(: I wrote super long for Lit. essay yesterday haha. My hand was aching like crazy after that hehe.
Denise was super funny today. She tried to suprise me but I think it didn't work out. HAHA. She wanted to suprise me with Hershey's we were going to share together for recess. hehe. It was definitely delicious Denise(: Thanks for the lil' treats which includes your awesomely-baked cookies(: We ate the almond one and the cookies n cream one. 2 packs 0.0 so I think each of us took approx. 1/3 of the 2 packets of it. hahahaha. yummy:D
Last night, I was just chatting to Grace and she said I'm an interesting person, haha.Serious and cranky at the same time and my actions are unpredictable haha. Well, quite true I should say. I get totally serious and worked up when there's a time limit to things and all. Then get a bit too tensed up, Denise thinks I'm too stressed, that's why she gave me hershey's hahahaha. Then, I can also get super hyper when I'm like I dunno, not really tensed up haha.
I think I really need a friend whom I can be seriously frank with. It's hard but it's good to have someone like that. I'm hoping. Hmmm...it's really hard to share your darkest secrets with someone even though she may be close to you. It's still hard because she may criticise you and all and won't dare to open up anymore. I want someone who will be open and both of us will listen to what each other has to say. HOPE. BELIEVE. TRUST.
I know I'm really trying to control my emotions. It's just beneath everything. I really wish it wouldn't happen this week. At least after Common Tests please. I know I've poured it out to a few people who do care for me, at least to a certain extent. Yep, and I'm feeling better. I know I shouldn't be worrying. Esther says its hard to manage between that and studies and I really agree with that. Just hope God will help me(: Bring me through these tough times that I face now(:
Okay, this post is rather long. But I think it's one which has some important stuff in it, haha. Hope you liked this post, LOL. Anyways, all the best for the remaining CTs!!!:D byebye(:
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